::Claim Me::
Sleep is trying to claim me
I fight to keep it off
Dreams are trying to take me
I write to stay awake
I fear the pain that awaits me
When my eyes close to the light
I fear the thought of waking
And looking at my life
An altered life I found in dreams
But the dreams turned to torment me
Wanting to sleep not to dream
Wanting to cry not to scream
Wanting someone to rescue me
02-02-2003
Bonnie Jean Higgins
::Marisol Stage Left::
She blinks and wakes
To a new existence
Shadowed
Rainy
Lonely
She blinks again
She must be dreaming
Nightmares
Night terrors
Bad Trip
Blink, Blink
Hot tears bleed from
Green eyes streaked red
Dropping
Searing
Not drying
She blinks and blinks
She realized
Marisol
Exited stage left
Maybe she will come again in the spring
Only Clyde knows….
B.J.H. 12-24-2011
::Fog of Confusion::
There is a fog of confusion that sometimes clouds my brain
When surrounded by this fog I am lost inside my pain
I have tried to let the fog sleep
But my low moods bring it back
Then I have to start all over again
To bring my serenity back
This never ending battle between the normal and insane
Often leaves me in awe of the skittishness of my brain
I need a star inside my head to always shine so bright
To keep the fog from returning and mucking up my life.
by Bonnie Jean Higgins
03-11-01
::Silent Darkness::
I do not feel
I cannot try
My wings are clipped
My soul is tired
No more daydreams
I am at home
Peaceful solitude
In my fortress of stone
I do not come out
I do not try
I am content here
Where there is nothing to hide
No more tears
I am at home
Silent darkness
In my fortress of stone
©04.19.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved
::Stormcloud::
I can feel the storm inside of me
Threatening once again to break free
It’s churning my cloud of self-loathing
So depression is all I see
It holds a match to the fuse of my rage
It dangles a noose at my throat
I can sense a storm brewing deep inside my soul
The storm that threatened my life so very long ago
It’s casting shadows on my fear to drive away the light
It is sending raindrops to my heart
To drive me to the night
I can feel the storm inside of me
Threatening once again to break free
I can feel myself smile again
As I let my spirit free
Let the stormclouds come my way
Let them drown me in rain
I am the fallen angel
And Stormcloud is my name
I care not for the world of light
I care not for dreams
My storm is coming to take me away
I will leave you with my screams
BJH 02-11-2003
Bon, B, Marisol, Elena, Princess, Witch, Sunshine, Angel Sybil, pick a name I have many
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