::Silent Darkness::
I do not feel
I cannot try
My wings are clipped
My soul is tired
No more daydreams
I am at home
Peaceful solitude
In my fortress of stone
I do not come out
I do not try
I am content here
Where there is nothing to hide
No more tears
I am at home
Silent darkness
In my fortress of stone
©04.19.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved
:: Saturn::
Angels blue and dreams of two
Saturn’s halo wrapped around you
Our stars were close
A phone call brought music
And poetry flowed
A bitter knife we cast
We left our ocean in the past
Two tortured hearts we remained
In the never ending rain
Angels blue and dreams of two
I am alone on Saturn
Waiting for you
BJH
©01.10.06
Downward spiral here we go
Anxiety exploding
Anger is growing
I hate not being able to control this
Yes, you love me
You have not seen the edge
My edge
Or the fall
The plunge into the dark
Tears fall
No reason
Just so damn stuck
Four leaf clover was a joke
I hear my blue lace agate clock tick
I want to SCREAM
I want to RUN
Nowhere to go
I can’t get away from my mind
It’s not normal
Irrational
I’m frantically writing
Tears smearing ink
It’s so damn cold in here
Have to hide this mad slip
From family
Am I feeling fatal?
I think so
Yes we have reached the red zone
Don’t push the button
TICK, TICK, TICK
Shaking rage?
Not sure
Damn it Stupid Girl!
Stop your shit
When I think I am better
When I feel I am happy
TICK, TICK, TICK
There she goes
Down, down, down
Gave all the razors away
I want to SCREAM!!!!!!
Here we go
Let my Circus begin!
May 2011 ~ BJH
Dreamscape Poetry
I write about angels, demons and screams
I write about princes, castles and dreams
I write about emotions and mystical things
I write about love and the blood that it brings
I write for poets, for lovers and me
I write for enemies and emotional release
I write for breath, for death, for need
I write to calm my stormy seas
I am a princess, a poet, a witch and a muse
I am a fallen angel with wings of blue
I am the ghost of the lake the child of the moon
I am the nightmare that waits to frighten you
I live in a world of fairytales and dreams
In a tower overlooking a moonlit sea
I visit Andromeda and Saturn’s ring
I walk through hell and demon screams
My mind is s trip through heaven and hell
A world of fantasy and wizard spells
Pictures of love and anguish as well
Please take a look and fare the well
by Bonnie Jean Higgins
::Haunt Me::
Sea green eyes calling from the midst of the ocean
Churning by the beacon of safety
Calling to me softly
Not caring about the rocks in the wake
Eyes that look so peaceful
Roll restlessly by the danger line
I am helpless as I wade into the ocean black
I drop my gown as I wade into the midnight depths
Don’t look back sweet angel
For this is a night to remember
Cold water rises to my neck
As the moon shimmers in the icy waves
Stop… mid step
Waves crashing on the shore
And all I see is mesmerizing green
Eyes of peaceful safety
Beyond the point of fear
And under I go
My hair fanning out in the ghostly waters
Going to the love I feel
Knowing this is only a dream
And when I wake I shall be alone with the taste of sea green passion on my lips
I know this is unrequited
Still…
When the sea foams restlessly
I shall go willingly
Lost in the sea green eyes that haunt me.
©03.24.04
BJH
Bon, B, Marisol, Elena, Princess, Witch, Sunshine, Angel Sybil, pick a name I have many
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