Fog of Confusion

::Fog of Confusion::

There is a fog of confusion that sometimes clouds my brain

When surrounded by this fog I am lost inside my pain

I have tried to let the fog sleep

But my low moods bring it back

Then I have to start all over again

To bring my serenity back

This never ending battle between the normal and insane

Often leaves me in awe of the skittishness of my brain

I need a star inside my head to always shine so bright

To keep the fog from returning and mucking up my life.

by Bonnie Jean Higgins


Brilliant Minds beyond Forte

A thought starts slow notes
Filling an empty staff
Standard time
Standard key
Brilliant minds
Different ideas
Syncopation with 16th notes
Strong opinions
Crescendo to forte
Heated debate
Crescendo rising to fortissimo
18th notes
32 notes
up the tempo
Brilliant minds
Not to be tamed
Both want the melody
No Conductor
discord in fortissimo
Syncopation lost
Music to noise
One slows their tempo
to pianissimo
To silence
The other
To al fine
Brilliant minds
The first note so simple
Could have been
A beautifully
Intricate composition
With brilliant minds
The music cannot be composed
As a duet.

by Bonnie Jean Higgins

Music has been in my soul as long as I can remember. In this poem I turned to my first love for Inspiration..
Music of course. I started Chorus at 8 we sang at the Kennedy Center… Then I took up the violin the following year at about 9
It sounded like a Crow dying so at 10 i found the flute and I played, and played first chair Flute on through the school years playing the piccolo as well. I started piano at 17 and then guitar… now… at 37 I sometimes play the flute an Aquarius Air Sign.. song of the East Wind and I now I write the stories of my life in poetry the images, feelings and music that is always in my head.

And Thank you to my Many Music teachers who guided me, pushed me and taught me to let my emotions free through song, even though I added to their gray hair (umm sorry)…. and to the English teacher in 10th grade who made us write a poem even though I hated to read much less write poetry… well she gave me wings.

MY Favorite Poem memorized in childhood

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I learned this poem by heart when I was in second grade i hope you enjoy,Wynken, Blynken, and Nod (Dutch Lullaby)
by Eugene Field (1850-1895)

Wynken, Blynken, and Nod one night
Sailed off in a wooden shoe
Sailed on a river of crystal light,
Into a sea of dew.
“Where are you going, and what do you wish?”
The old moon asked the three.
“We have come to fish for the herring fish
That live in this beautiful sea;
Nets of silver and gold have we!”
Said Wynken,
And Nod.

The old moon laughed and sang a song,
As they rocked in the wooden shoe,
And the wind that sped them all night long
Ruffled the waves of dew.
The little stars were the herring fish
That lived in that beautiful sea—
“Now cast your nets wherever you wish—
Never afeard are we”;
So cried the stars to the fishermen three:
And Nod.

All night long their nets they threw
To the stars in the twinkling foam—
Then down from the skies came the wooden shoe,
Bringing the fishermen home;
‘T was all so pretty a sail it seemed
As if it could not be,
And some folks thought ‘t was a dream they ‘d dreamed
Of sailing that beautiful sea—
But I shall name you the fishermen three:
And Nod.

Wynken and Blynken are two little eyes,
And Nod is a little head,
And the wooden shoe that sailed the skies
Is a wee one’s trundle-bed.
So shut your eyes while mother sings
Of wonderful sights that be,
And you shall see the beautiful things
As you rock in the misty sea,
Where the old shoe rocked the fishermen three:
And Nod.


Someone ~ 2007



I need someone to love me in sunshine and in rain

Someone to be there for me when my mind gets a little insane

I need someone to need me and to tell me it is okay

Someone who will treasure my heart and never throw it away

I need someone to help me when I am lost within a rage

Someone to take my hand and tell me it is going to be okay

I want someone who believes in forever, in sunshine and in rain

Someone who will hold my hand and wipe my tears away

I just need someone who will be there in sunshine and in rain

Someone who will take my teardrops and kiss the pain away


~┬ęB.J.H. 04.10.07~