Hiding

A kiss
My sigh
That look
Goodbye
Not worth it
I know
Alone
You must go
Vodka
And tears
Heartbreak
It’s here
A kiss
My sigh
That look
Goodbye
No reason
No reply
Just kiss me
Goodbye
I’ll see you around
Hiding my frown

~©B .J. H. ~ 11.23.05

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Double Edged Words

Double Edged Words

The words sat before her
A blessing and a curse
For so long she has wanted to see them
For so long she denied their truth
She had cast away that memory
Disregarded it as the power of the full moon
Said in the past on a whim
But forgotten over the passing of time
Said in a talk of passion
But disregarded now that the rings are entwined
The words sat before her
A blessing and a curse
Tears filled her eyes
Causing the words to blur
For he had written I Love You
And she knew his heart to be true
Even though he was just married
His heart was still partially hers
She wiped the tears from her lashes
And bid him sweet good night
In his dreams she would come to him
In her dreams she would be his bride.

©01.15.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved

Twilight (Published work written PRIOR to Stephenie Meyer)

 Twilight

Twilight’s reign grows week,
as moonbeams take the throne.
Those of eternal sleep,
will wake for the Sun is gone.
The wind whispers in the trees,
while the spiders run in the grass.
The one being I seek,
will return at last.
The light from his eye’s will guide my way.
The touch of his kiss will smother my pain.
The embrace of his arms will put me in Heaven,
and the song in his voice will linger forever.
The moonbeams glow in the night,
as the wind sings the trees a lullaby.
My love and I will take flight,
and leave the world a kiss goodbye.

Bonnie Jean Higgins
(© 1995)

Not For Death….

Not For Death

When it’s dark inside my world
I take a blade or a little pill
I calm the screaming thoughts in my mind
With a little blood and some sleeping time
Not for a death wish do I bleed
Only to feel something, to feel relief
Not for death do I drown into sleep
Only quiet my mind, not to dream
You see my scars, not pretty I know
I wish they did not cause you to look at me so
I am not begging for death or crying out for help
I am only finding ways to cope with myself
Please understand and do not five me grief
when you see the red lines that sometimes mark me
This comes and it goes like the sun and the rain
It does not hurt and there is no one to blame
So love me in spite of my little quirks
And I promise to be with you until the end of the Earth
Support me, don’t judge me and I will be forever yours
And I promise to never purposefully leave you alone in this world.

©08.07.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved

 

Ice Chamber

::Ice Chamber::

Dark is the chamber she finds herself in
No lights
No candles
No glints from within
Shadowed his world
Cloaked in a dense fog
She looks for a doorway in these ice slick walls
A passage
A key
Some place to start
She tries to find the emotions he hides in the dark
The light that he gave her is starting to dim
Alas, she has failed him time and again
He holds onto her heart as he pushes her away
And searching in his darkness she is determined to stay
The future is theirs
She knows this to be true
And when she gets past his defense
he will know this too.

©08.16.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved