Half Lit

:: Half Lit ::

My green eyes are half lit

As I sink into thick blankets

Sub-zero July nights are

Colder without Clyde my custom-made heater

I listen to lyrics to a song on a loop

I don’t understand the word

Although I did 2 hours ago

My blueberry smoothie mind

Muses over faded scars

And I wonder about a Thursday

That I don’t remember

July 20, 2012

B.J.H.

Sagittarius Musings

::Flip-Flop Tan Lines::

White waves rush

to greet coral toe tips

Sand of white powder

Sets off flip-flop tan lines

Silver moon

Illuminates ocean waves

That hum melancholy Chopin

 moon shines down

On receding waves

Powder white sand glitters

Setting off a single pink flip-flop

May 6, 2012

BJH

eye of the storm

::  Electric Dolphin ::

Dark nights

bad thoughts

White ovals

Swirling in my stomache

Music that disturbed me

Why?

I don’t know

I want to hear Learning To Fly

by Pink Floyd

I am going to fly and soar

We are in neverland

With white ovals

I am not connected to their world

I drift with the dolphins

In the dark with words

My fuzzy brain

Writes these lines

B.J.H.

12-19-2011

Disconnected

5:30 am and it’s flipping cold
The sun is rising
The birds are doing their morning gossip
And I have insomnia
Damn sleeping pills didn’t work
Had a disconnected day
People I knew were in and out all day
I was not part of the conversations
Lost in my own weird brain
Writing the hours away
Until Clyde and I were alone
We talked or more like
I babbled and he listened
After all it was 4am
Disconnected
What was lacking today?
Our normal word play
Our normal playful flirting
He fell asleep
And I am still awake
Feeling kinda blue
Wondering how our two month Anniversary
Involved everyone but us two
It was not a good day
Nor was it a bad day
It was our day lost
To unexpected visitors
That left around 3am
The Sun is finally awake
And I am flipping cold

BJH 05-20-2011

Green Licorice and Cherry Snow Lollipops

My neurotransmitters are not transmitting
Neurons not getting needed information
Are my mind and body not in sync?
Lack of information going to proper locations
Unable to process
Assess
What is going on at this present moment?
Over-thinking
Overcritical
Thinking the same thought over and over with different wording,
Is this what I really want to say?
So I say nothing because this is much to complicated
Silence
Thought
I decide that my mind and body are not out of sync
It is a revelation that comes from the fact that I am
in fact thinking and typing and typing what i am thinking
So what is not transmitting?????
Restrictions
Inhibitions
Rules and regulations
The part of the mind that stores this type of information
I like my neurotransmitters blocking this select part
lazy neurons
So I feel free
Head in the air
Like I am 5 years old going to the county fair
Eating green licorice because it looks gross
And sucking cherry snow flavored lollipops because
at 5 I know they are made of real snow
And when it is almost summer tasting snow is magick
I was a strange little girl.
Today was a good day
Two months into a long over due spring and summer only a skip away
It magickly snowed cherry flavored lollipops
while I was hanging out with two great friends
We shared green licorice that still is kinda gross to me
I kissed my boyfriend, fave writer and biggest fan.
He handed me some magick cherry snow
and in perfect sync our neurotransmitters stopped transmissions
BJH 05-19-2011

This is dedicated to J.D., M.R and B.G. and of course my own Caribbean Fool. ~ Good Times man Good Times