Random Thoughts

~ Sometimes silence eats you with cannibal thoughts of the mind ~

~ I saw the Earth rotate, looking down on a windshield. Flotsam and jetsam under a cloudy sky. Could I be standing over the abyss? ~


Brown eyes mesmerize
Green eyes flutter
Hearts skip a beat
Then pound like thunder
Head tilts forward
Hair brushes her face
Kissing ensues
At a frantic pace
Passion builds
Like an ocean wave
A sigh of release
Leads to a sleepy gaze
His arms are strong
He holds her tight
They embrace the spell
Of this enchanted night

Ocean City May 2011

Road Map Of Contradictions ~ 2010 ~ In Memory April 13, 2012

As asked I am re-posting this poem in the memory of who it was wrote for.

To those who requested this

I love you all very much

Originally  Posted  April 12, 2011

Road Map Of Contradictions


You cannot see what I see
And I cannot feel what you feel
A loss as to the outcome
A conflict that is much to real
Pain for you I cannot fathom
And my fear you cannot grasp
We dance on a sharp edge
A complicated mess
Is it normal what my eyes behold
When you feel no pain
I can only look to the past
Of what I know
And you do not seem the same
Many years have passed us by
And changes have been made
Still you change every day
It is hard to comprehend
I look at you with loving eyes
You fail to see I care
I want to help
To ease your pain
But the cost is hard to bare
Yes this pain is yours my love
It is in your hands alone
You are unable to let me share this burden
You say you must do this on your own
Sadly I am unable to understand
The road map of your thoughts
I will stand and wait for the day
When you can take me along.

BJH ~ 2010


This was inspired by someone whom I loved dearly who struggled with addiction. Sadly not all can be helped. Eventually you have to walk away to save your own life. Good Luck ALP

April 12, 2011

Sad to say the addiction took over and he passed away. Rest In Peace ALP

April 13, 2012


sometime last year

:: I Just Don’t Know ::

Double-Sided disorder

Strikes again

Went to the doc

Upped those meds

Explained to managment

Watch for Warning signs

Research the danger zone

When the circuit breaker is blown

Gotta stop the Hazard zone

Waiting for sanity

It always returns

Downside moments cause

unintended disruption

it takes time for the brain to stabilize

Constant effort

not always maintained


Fall of 2011

eye of the storm

::  Electric Dolphin ::

Dark nights

bad thoughts

White ovals

Swirling in my stomache

Music that disturbed me


I don’t know

I want to hear Learning To Fly

by Pink Floyd

I am going to fly and soar

We are in neverland

With white ovals

I am not connected to their world

I drift with the dolphins

In the dark with words

My fuzzy brain

Writes these lines