Hiding

A kiss
My sigh
That look
Goodbye
Not worth it
I know
Alone
You must go
Vodka
And tears
Heartbreak
It’s here
A kiss
My sigh
That look
Goodbye
No reason
No reply
Just kiss me
Goodbye
I’ll see you around
Hiding my frown

~©B .J. H. ~ 11.23.05

The Rift

::The Rift::

It’s starting to happen again
The clouds form warning of rain
Her tower offers no protection
Since it crumbled and faded away

The angel stares at the sky
Midnight wings dormant at her sides
Eyes wide open
No words spoken
Shell shocked her fear starts to rise

She let him come into her world
He found the lost little girl
Too much he sees
But not willing to flee
He stands still to take it all in

The rift between the angel and the prince
A dark deep bottomless pit
They can see each other’s eyes
Across the jagged divide
And wonder when this separation will end

The angel feels fog at her feet
She turns her face so he will not see her weep
Should she walk away
Or should she stay
After all the prince holds the key.

©08.12.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins

prozac dtox and prednisone inspire gloomy writing

:: Star Light, Star Bright ::

What do you do

When stars fail you

Wishes

Dreams

The magick of the indigo sky

Gone

A memory

Teardrop memory

When I lost my faith in star wishes

I had already lost my faith in words.

02-07-12

written some ungodly time in the morning before the sun rises

B.J.H.

Maybe In the Spring….

::Marisol Stage Left::

She blinks and wakes

To a new existence

Shadowed

Rainy

Lonely

She blinks again

She must be dreaming

Nightmares

Night terrors

Bad Trip

Blink, Blink

Hot tears bleed from

Green eyes streaked red

Dropping

Searing

Not drying

She blinks and blinks

She realized

Marisol

Exited stage left

Maybe she will come again in the spring

Only Clyde knows….

B.J.H. 12-24-2011

Mind Circus

Downward spiral here we go
Anxiety exploding
Anger is growing
I hate not being able to control this
Yes, you love me
You have not seen the edge
My edge
Or the fall
The plunge into the dark
Tears fall
No reason
Just so damn stuck
Four leaf clover was a joke
I hear my blue lace agate clock tick
I want to SCREAM
I want to RUN
Nowhere to go
I can’t get away from my mind
It’s not normal
Irrational
I’m frantically writing
Tears smearing ink
It’s so damn cold in here
Have to hide this mad slip
From family
Am I feeling fatal?
I think so
Yes we have reached the red zone
Don’t push the button
TICK, TICK, TICK
Shaking rage?
Not sure
Damn it Stupid Girl!
Stop your shit
When I think I am better
When I feel I am happy
TICK, TICK, TICK
There she goes
Down, down, down
Gave all the razors away
I want to SCREAM!!!!!!
Here we go
Let my Circus begin!

May 2011 ~ BJH