Dreaming Through November ~ Really?

Really?

Here it comes
The flaw
The issue
How many days has it been?
Is this a new record?
Laughing in my head
Oh how rich I would be
If I placed bets
No One ever means it
When they say
They would never change you
Why must people spew words
That hold no meaning?
I beg to be proved wrong
It has yet to happen
And people wonder why
I am guarded…

B.J.H. November 2013

Ice Chamber

::Ice Chamber::

Dark is the chamber she finds herself in
No lights
No candles
No glints from within
Shadowed his world
Cloaked in a dense fog
She looks for a doorway in these ice slick walls
A passage
A key
Some place to start
She tries to find the emotions he hides in the dark
The light that he gave her is starting to dim
Alas, she has failed him time and again
He holds onto her heart as he pushes her away
And searching in his darkness she is determined to stay
The future is theirs
She knows this to be true
And when she gets past his defense
he will know this too.

©08.16.05
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved

November & Neptune

There were no seashells to be found
Six days I had looked
Neptune must have been on another shore
I prepare to leave my ocean
I prepare to say goodbye
To the boy with the shadowed eyes
He plans to bring me back soon
But I missed a chance
To dream seashore dreams
To look at the stars
Reflected in my indigo ocean
I failed to capture a picture
Of our shadows in the sand
A feeling of dread comes over me
As sand is traded for pavement
In my heart I knew
I would not be back again

B.J.H. 06-21-2013
Based on events of November 2012 VA Beach

Fear The Sun

::Fear The Sun::

I do not fear the reaper
For in its symbolism I trust
Always the same
Never change
Death alone he is
What I fear is emotion
Putting my heart in another
Am I willing to trust again
Am I willing to live
I do not fear the night
I do not fear its darkness
For everything is hidden
Everything is silent
What I fear is daylight
The reality of a naked soul
Letting someone in
And letting myself go.

©February 2004
Bonnie Jean Higgins/All Rights Reserved

Spider Web

~ Spider Web ~

Spider web
Ghostly threads
Caught my heart
My soul is bled
Glowing eyes
Wrap me tight
Shuts out the light
For breath I fight
Velvet voice
Laughs at me
I don’t want to hear
I cannot flee
Spider web
With dew drops glow
Luminescent threads
Feel so cold
Glowing eyes
Gaze at me
I don’t want to see
The sea of green
Velvet voice
Whispering
In my dreams
I am whimpering
For the spider web
Has captured me
Lulling me from safety
Into nothing but spider webs
Ghostly threads
Invade my head
Spider webs
Ghostly threads
Caught in nightmares of spider webs

~ Bonnie Jean Higgins ~