When Half of You Is Gone

I knew you reached your destination
When I couldn’t breathe,
My chest tight and fighting me
Sharp, jagged, painful.
You would only be gone five days
Only a few hours away
This was not supposed to affect me so deeply
Bother Me,
Unnerve me,
Stop me from breathing
So I continue to work
Smiling,
Talking,
Laughing,
Then I pause to take a break
Tears start falling
Unwanted, unasked for
I am unable to stop them
Hide them,
Hold them in.
You will only be gone five days
Only a few hours away
This is not supposed to affect me so deeply
But it does
And it has only been four hours.

B.J.H.
06-21-1014

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Sleepy Shadows

Sleepy shadows
Take Me home
Back to the quiet of the forlorn
I will dance in midnight meadows
Alone with moonlight and my sleepy shadows
living life is much to hard
Facing reality will leave you with scars
So I will dip in darkened streams
And I will fly on dark blue wings
My sleepy shadows take me home
To the quiet world of the forlorn.

B.J.H.
02-20-2003

November PTSD

November PTSD

I have to admit it is a bleak evening
My brain is fuzzy
As well as my hands.
Clyde and cotton candy
Keep breaking into my thoughts
It was bound to happen
The November nightmares
And arctic winters
Of the past two years
Are Clyde’s creation
A natural PTSD
Haunting.

B.J.H. November 2013

Dreaming Through November ~ Epiphany

Epiphany

You don’t realize
How deep
Past damage seeps,
Until you try to
Move on.

B.J.H. November 2013

Hiding

A kiss
My sigh
That look
Goodbye
Not worth it
I know
Alone
You must go
Vodka
And tears
Heartbreak
It’s here
A kiss
My sigh
That look
Goodbye
No reason
No reply
Just kiss me
Goodbye
I’ll see you around
Hiding my frown

~©B .J. H. ~ 11.23.05